Tired of you being the center on my thoughts, when im nerver in yours!
Friday, January 18, 2008
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Sleeping with the Enemy.....
Could it be any crazier?
Doesn't give a fuxk about me, doesn't care if I'm living or not.
Sat right next to me, didn't even shyt on me.
So preoccupied with his technology.
Yep, his tech always meant more.
Shyt everything always meant more.
But denial is a bitxh!
Hiding these emotions from everybody including myself.
Damn, played the fool, again.
Alot of people are upset at me, they just cant understand what he's doing that I cant get somewhere else.
Feeling like this has gone way to far.
He the kemo, and cancer in my life.
So yep, I admit it....
You made you happy, but you stop caring.
Stop giving a damn.
Txt, call?
Hell Naw....that was pulling teeth!
Too much pride to show affection.
Bringing me down.
Deserve so much more.
Games is all you know, and you played them very well I could say.
It's really only entertainment to you.
Just another bitxh, another hoe to you.
Another ass hole to believe all of you bull shyt.
Soo Sweet but so venerable to you.
You detected it, and took advantage.
So i slept with the Enemy.
Night after night.
Day after day.
Hurt many of my friends with my stupidity.
They know you don't give a damn.
Your never affected.
Could it get worse?
I think not!
So I want to apologize to all the people that I hurt in the process.
Dont want to lose the little bit of people that actually give a fuxk about somebody other than themselves.
Disrespectful.
Arrogant.
Selfish.
And so much more....
So why I'm I tripping on you?
Why did I let you get the best of me?
But ima give you the ignorant shyt you need.
I guess that what I get for sleeping with the enemy.
Doesn't give a fuxk about me, doesn't care if I'm living or not.
Sat right next to me, didn't even shyt on me.
So preoccupied with his technology.
Yep, his tech always meant more.
Shyt everything always meant more.
But denial is a bitxh!
Hiding these emotions from everybody including myself.
Damn, played the fool, again.
Alot of people are upset at me, they just cant understand what he's doing that I cant get somewhere else.
Feeling like this has gone way to far.
He the kemo, and cancer in my life.
So yep, I admit it....
You made you happy, but you stop caring.
Stop giving a damn.
Txt, call?
Hell Naw....that was pulling teeth!
Too much pride to show affection.
Bringing me down.
Deserve so much more.
Games is all you know, and you played them very well I could say.
It's really only entertainment to you.
Just another bitxh, another hoe to you.
Another ass hole to believe all of you bull shyt.
Soo Sweet but so venerable to you.
You detected it, and took advantage.
So i slept with the Enemy.
Night after night.
Day after day.
Hurt many of my friends with my stupidity.
They know you don't give a damn.
Your never affected.
Could it get worse?
I think not!
So I want to apologize to all the people that I hurt in the process.
Dont want to lose the little bit of people that actually give a fuxk about somebody other than themselves.
Disrespectful.
Arrogant.
Selfish.
And so much more....
So why I'm I tripping on you?
Why did I let you get the best of me?
But ima give you the ignorant shyt you need.
I guess that what I get for sleeping with the enemy.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Missing him.
Riding the train looking out the window.
Looking at all of Gods blessings.
Im thinking....Why am I getting all sad?
God gives me the opportunity to breath everyday, and all I could think about is if he is thinking about me.
Anywho....
Everyday I wake up I get the feeling like God is walking with me.
Like my angel is walking me holding my hand.
Whispering in my hear that everything is going to be ok.
Giving me favor everywhere I go.
So why be sad?
Why not trust God?
And realize that I'm a beautiful being.
Why trip about the little things?
Why not thank God for all the big things that he does?
Done.
Riding the train looking out the window.
Looking at all of Gods blessings.
Im thinking....Why am I getting all sad?
God gives me the opportunity to breath everyday, and all I could think about is if he is thinking about me.
Anywho....
Everyday I wake up I get the feeling like God is walking with me.
Like my angel is walking me holding my hand.
Whispering in my hear that everything is going to be ok.
Giving me favor everywhere I go.
So why be sad?
Why not trust God?
And realize that I'm a beautiful being.
Why trip about the little things?
Why not thank God for all the big things that he does?
Done.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Overstander.
Keeping it real!
Reading my horoscope this morning really helped me to be at peace with my decision.
I'm ok now.
Couldn't sleep last night.
I thought about our situation and I just feel like I let myself go.
Trust me I don't like feeling like this. If I could stop feeling like this I would.
Ever felt you could just run away with all of your feelings and emotions.
Away to a place where you could be free with your thoughts.
It's hard to do that when you see the person all the time.
I realize I need to eliminate all of those feelings out of my system.
PERMANENTLY!!
Don't really want to do that, but its only best.
Ever felt like you were the only person that understood you?
Kinda like every time you opened up your mouth, you were being judged, or you would be the only person who actually felt what you were saying.
Feeling like whenever you say something people might either look at you like your crazy, say that your ignorant, or just say that your just so damn gullible.
So to eliminate all of that you just stop saying how you really feel....
It works out temporarily.
Until the person realizes that you aren't telling them everything.....
Ever want to tell somebody everything?
Just to let it all go! Get it out of your system, and be completely expressive!
Tried it....they thought you were crazy.
UGH!!!
Ever tried writing down how you felt? That worked out temporarily....until they didn't like what you wrote down.
So what should the Sweetest Girl do?
Say fuxk it and let him have his way, and move on. Say who cares and not be ashamed of your feelings for him, or continue business as usual....
Moving on......
Honestly I been living with myself for 19 years now.
I know that I'm a little quirky, freaky, motherly, some might even say ditsy.
But that's me!
And ill be damn if i can help it!
Every felt like nobody could ever love or except you the way you are.
Especially when you know that you have nothing but love for him.
Nothing but kindness in your heart.
Wouldnt hurt a fly.
But seems like everybody wants to hurts you.
The sweetest girl is misunderstood.
Karma is real.
Destiny is real.
And I know God is workig in my favor.
I get me!
And I know its difficult for somebody to understand who you are and appreciate you.
But im going to give myself a little advice.....
OVERSTANDING is a great gift....knowing who you are and sticking to it.
SRH
Faithful, Favored. Sensitive Young Black Woman.
The OVERSTANDER.
Reading my horoscope this morning really helped me to be at peace with my decision.
I'm ok now.
Couldn't sleep last night.
I thought about our situation and I just feel like I let myself go.
Trust me I don't like feeling like this. If I could stop feeling like this I would.
Ever felt you could just run away with all of your feelings and emotions.
Away to a place where you could be free with your thoughts.
It's hard to do that when you see the person all the time.
I realize I need to eliminate all of those feelings out of my system.
PERMANENTLY!!
Don't really want to do that, but its only best.
Ever felt like you were the only person that understood you?
Kinda like every time you opened up your mouth, you were being judged, or you would be the only person who actually felt what you were saying.
Feeling like whenever you say something people might either look at you like your crazy, say that your ignorant, or just say that your just so damn gullible.
So to eliminate all of that you just stop saying how you really feel....
It works out temporarily.
Until the person realizes that you aren't telling them everything.....
Ever want to tell somebody everything?
Just to let it all go! Get it out of your system, and be completely expressive!
Tried it....they thought you were crazy.
UGH!!!
Ever tried writing down how you felt? That worked out temporarily....until they didn't like what you wrote down.
So what should the Sweetest Girl do?
Say fuxk it and let him have his way, and move on. Say who cares and not be ashamed of your feelings for him, or continue business as usual....
Moving on......
Honestly I been living with myself for 19 years now.
I know that I'm a little quirky, freaky, motherly, some might even say ditsy.
But that's me!
And ill be damn if i can help it!
Every felt like nobody could ever love or except you the way you are.
Especially when you know that you have nothing but love for him.
Nothing but kindness in your heart.
Wouldnt hurt a fly.
But seems like everybody wants to hurts you.
The sweetest girl is misunderstood.
Karma is real.
Destiny is real.
And I know God is workig in my favor.
I get me!
And I know its difficult for somebody to understand who you are and appreciate you.
But im going to give myself a little advice.....
OVERSTANDING is a great gift....knowing who you are and sticking to it.
SRH
Faithful, Favored. Sensitive Young Black Woman.
The OVERSTANDER.
:::Sweetest Girl:::
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A little Inspiration
I keep moving foward.
Opening New doors and doing new things.
Because I am curious and curiosity keep leading me down new paths.
-Walt Disney
Opening New doors and doing new things.
Because I am curious and curiosity keep leading me down new paths.
-Walt Disney
Um....
Soo I know I havent came thru in a while....but im here now.
I have alot to talk about. The Sweetest Girl been doing alot of thinking and sometimes that hurts me more than it helps. But I cant help how I feel. I just need to understand exsactly whats going on. Its not as simple as it looks. God has a plan for me, and he is working all out for me. So im going to have to practice what I preach and have faith. I cant force it, and I KNOW he isnt going to force it. Soo time will have to tell.
I have alot to talk about. The Sweetest Girl been doing alot of thinking and sometimes that hurts me more than it helps. But I cant help how I feel. I just need to understand exsactly whats going on. Its not as simple as it looks. God has a plan for me, and he is working all out for me. So im going to have to practice what I preach and have faith. I cant force it, and I KNOW he isnt going to force it. Soo time will have to tell.
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Monday, December 31, 2007
Acting Brand Nu....In the Nu year
So I dont like unless it's brand nu shyyyyttt! So today is December 31 and im chillin with the fam. Im thinking.....damn this year is over. 2008 is about to come thru and I can say that im excited. Its just something about new shyt....Brings me backs to that song by Mario called Nike's fresh out the box.
I remember back in the day (lol im only 18....and a 1/2) getting a brand nu pair of Reeboxs. I thought i was hottt shyt! If somebody steped on my Re's it would be on and popping! Anywho......
I want to treat my nu year like I used to treat my Re's. Wear it out and use it for everything it has and take advantage of all my opportonites. I plan to have fun, but not to much to mess up my nu year. My Re's were flyy so I plan to make 08 as flyy. I plan to work hard, and make 08 something to remember. A year that I can look back on and be proud. Kind of how im proud of the way I treated my Re's.
Acting Brand Nu, aint nothing nu fah me.....So you should follow suit.
When the ball drops where im going to be?
Far away from yall mah fuxkahs!
♥ Happy Nu Year ♥
::Sweetest Girl::
::I see her I want her Got to have her like (Nikes fresh out the box) I'm fining Day dreamingGot to have her like (Nikes fresh out the box)I wont scuff her up. I'll lace her up right.Treat her real good like a pair of fresh white hi top or low tops.I got to have the white Nikes fresh out the box::
It feels good when you just got your hair done or when your going out looking flyy as you want to be. It just feels like nothing can go wrong.I remember back in the day (lol im only 18....and a 1/2) getting a brand nu pair of Reeboxs. I thought i was hottt shyt! If somebody steped on my Re's it would be on and popping! Anywho......
I want to treat my nu year like I used to treat my Re's. Wear it out and use it for everything it has and take advantage of all my opportonites. I plan to have fun, but not to much to mess up my nu year. My Re's were flyy so I plan to make 08 as flyy. I plan to work hard, and make 08 something to remember. A year that I can look back on and be proud. Kind of how im proud of the way I treated my Re's.
Acting Brand Nu, aint nothing nu fah me.....So you should follow suit.
When the ball drops where im going to be?
Far away from yall mah fuxkahs!
♥ Happy Nu Year ♥
::Sweetest Girl::
Friday, December 28, 2007
:::Ace coon boon, Home Skillet, Ridah Die Bitxh:::
Big ups to my fav. couple Nicky and Phresh
Yall do need Jesus.....But all the best in EERRRthang yall do!Smooches!
::Sweetest Girl::
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This my homie....my best bitxh, my sister, my best friend.
I love this gal, been down since 6th grade....been through
hell with this gal....old boyfriends, or magnet drama class with Ms. Cidel,
(West Side story, Hamlet, Sister Act, even making ugly ass playbills lol) life changing events, evening me moving to atl....but we still here...BITXHES!
Down for 7 1/2 years....and counting
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
So this is my "Hood" (partially...tell yallz about St.thomas soon)
CC Zoo aka Carol City bka Mi-Yayo
Ancestries: West Indian (9.8%), United States (4.8%), Subsaharan African (1.0%).
Races in Carol City:
Black (52.1%)
Hispanic (42.0%)
White Non-Hispanic (6.4%)
Other race (5.5%)
Two or more races (3.5%)
Elevation: 8 feet
Land area: 7.62 square miles.
Population density: 7796 people per square mile
For population 25 years and over in Carol City
High school or higher: 61.0%
Bachelor's degree or higher: 9.7%
Graduate or professional degree: 3.7%
Unemployed: 11.1%
Mean travel time to work: 31.7 minutes
For population 15 years and over in Carol City
Never married: 33.2%
Now married: 47.3%
Separated: 3.7%
Widowed: 4.9%
Divorced: 10.9%
Males: 28,570
(48.1%)
Females: 30,873
(51.9%)
Median resident age:
32.0 years
Florida median age:
38.7 years
The happiest song by a emo.....
Barely Breathing
By Duncan Sheik
I know what you’re doing, I see it all to clear I only taste the saline when I kiss away your tears You really had me going, wishing on a star But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn Well it must have been that yesterday was the day that I was born There’s not much to examine, there’s nothing left to hide You really can’t be serious if you have to ask me why
I say good-bye...
‘Cause I am barely breathing And I can’t find the air I don’t know who I’m kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price The price that I would pay
Everyone keeps asking, what’s it all about? I used to be so certain and I can’t figure out What is this attraction? I only feel the pain There’s nothing left to reason and only you to blame Will it ever change?
‘Cause I am barely breathing And I can’t find the air I don’t know who I’m kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price The price that I would pay But I’m thinking it over anyway...
I’ve come to find I may never know Your changing mind Is it friend or foe?
I rise above Or sink below With every time You come and go Please don’t come and go
‘Cause I am barely breathing And I can’t find the air I don’t know who I’m kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price The price that I would pay But I’m thinking it over anyway.
By Duncan Sheik
I know what you’re doing, I see it all to clear I only taste the saline when I kiss away your tears You really had me going, wishing on a star But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn Well it must have been that yesterday was the day that I was born There’s not much to examine, there’s nothing left to hide You really can’t be serious if you have to ask me why
I say good-bye...
‘Cause I am barely breathing And I can’t find the air I don’t know who I’m kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price The price that I would pay
Everyone keeps asking, what’s it all about? I used to be so certain and I can’t figure out What is this attraction? I only feel the pain There’s nothing left to reason and only you to blame Will it ever change?
‘Cause I am barely breathing And I can’t find the air I don’t know who I’m kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price The price that I would pay But I’m thinking it over anyway...
I’ve come to find I may never know Your changing mind Is it friend or foe?
I rise above Or sink below With every time You come and go Please don’t come and go
‘Cause I am barely breathing And I can’t find the air I don’t know who I’m kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price The price that I would pay But I’m thinking it over anyway.
Sweetest girl is only human.....cant be perfect all the time
Im still cute tho!
Happy Holidays!
I love u Nicole, Rhayne,My cuzo Ash, Leon, Chas, Ken., Des, Dre, MeMe
All my Alphabet Bitxhes!
lol.....get on that Wezzy!
Never Ending
So I hate when a nigga say that he hate lier's and he's a lier! Just because he would give back change if the clerk at Walgreens gave him too much. OOOO please! Give me a break! Really! I guess I'm make myself open to liers.....I try to give him a chance......and I think well maybe he might be for real. But forget that! I just have to come to a understanding that they just cant help it. And besides.....I don't think I can handle the truth. I think I would flip if that nigga tells me the reason why he left my room so early is because he had to go to the movies with his ex. I have to admit, The sweetest girl does have an attitude.....and I wouldn't take that news so well. But why should I? My brothers always told me that I'm a queen, and I should be treated like one. I know that I should give a nigga space.....but damn when I give him space its like he is using that space to cater to another bitxh! Me and my nigga Des always joke around and we say "Let that Nigga breathe", but that shyt ain't working. Im to a point where I'm thinking we aren't ever going to be together, and if we are he isnt going to be faithful. True I dont want a boyfriend, but it hurts is that he treats another female the way he treats me. I hate being in denial, its just easier for me to face that facts and deal with it.
So now that we all know the truth......sigh.......
Later Daze
So now that we all know the truth......sigh.......
Later Daze
Sunday, December 23, 2007
NewYork, NewYork.
So when is somebody going to tell New York that there paying here to be a whore? She probably doesnt care.....I think i know why New York chose Tailor Made, and not Buddah. See New York is really a broke bitxh just trying to get by, she's basically trying to make a living in acting. Which is exsactly what Buddah is trying to do. Why would she want a broke ass nigga that just like her and her momma? Tailor made on the other hand.....is a rich German idiot. She can get whatever she wants from him. So New York figures that if she doesnt make it in Hollywood she can atleast still have her rich German man. Get it? So do I love have love for New York? Helllll naw.....not the Skizer!!
Later Daze
Not again
The Billboard Hot 100
#1 This Week
Is it me......or are you tired of hearing "No one"
I dont think anyONE still runs to the radio or tv when this song comes on.
Later Daze
Fuxk Love, aye.
I hear madd people say fuxk love. As much as I have been hurt I don’t think that I will ever give up on love. Everybody who says fuxk love is just scared. Scared of rejection, and the truth. I see a lot of people get hurt, but I see just as much people in love. I’ve been in love for a long time, and I cried just as much as I laughed. It’s a good feeling to love, but of course it feels even better when somebody loves you back. The way that I see it is, what do you have to loose? I just don’t understand why people are so afraid to settle down. Its not as if when you settle down your actually going to be “settling”. I think that I might have figured out love, or just a little part of it. I believe that love has something to do with maturity, we just have to get to a point we just say that we had enough. It’s a form of surrendering or basically giving up your heart. When we say “Bae your heart is mines” well its true. It’s unfortunate sometimes because sometimes because when you give some nigga’s your heart you might actually be putting your life on the line. Yes, I know it’s a sad way to look at it. I’ve been thru hell and high waters all in the name of “love”. “Awww” all the bitxhes say, but “its cool” is what I say. I keep forgetting that I have things to do, and love isn’t supposed to be on the list. Anywho…. When somebody say, “you ever been in love” I say been there, done that. Some of the sad bitxhes say “yea fuxk love”, I say “Nope, I FUXK the one that I love, but never fuxk love” What would life be without it? We would be a bunch of lonely, deranged people. Love makes the world go around. Well at least for the people that knows how to love. My babe asked me would I rather be loved or feared. I responded that I want to be loved. But why would I want to be feared? I don’t get anything out of having people afraid of me. He say he wants to be loved and be feared, but to me that impossible. Then he asks what you get out of being loved, regardless if people love you or not they are still going to hurt you. I didn’t know how to respond, but I thought about it, I would be happy. I would get piece of mind to know that I am doing right on my part. What wrong with a little filicitation? All I know is that I want to be loved and respected. So don’t fuxk love, fuxk that nigga who ruined it for you.
Larer Daze
Larer Daze
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