Kindaof a Big deal.
Consequence's Dont quit your day job.
Good Music.
Coming Soon.....
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Headline: Battle of the Blogs Canceled!
Ok, so im just going to put all of this battle of the blog shyt to an end! Goons? Really? This tell all session needs to stop! I wasn't trying to be spiteful or make you look bad, but obviously didn't have the same intentions with your retaliation. I don't understand why you feel the need to get all specific n shyt! But I guess if it makes sense to you..... You made it seem like I was lieing like what I said you did wasn't true. Im nOt a LieR! I don't plays games. And I damn sure didnt ask you for shyt! But honestly I cant even be really mad at you. I care about you to much for that. I know your only expressing yourself just like I did. And I know I started by I calling you the "enemy". That's how I felt, and I dont regret it. You hurt me....and im still a little sensitive about the whole situation. I just wished we would've really talked about this. And were both being childish by going back and forth. But I never disrespected you or told any of your business, but ill just have to build a bridge and get over it. This wasnt the original.And I didn't anticipate on being this brief, but I thought about it and we really need to realize that were entertaining the whole world with our issues. Soooo if you have any concerns or questions you should know where to find me.
:::!Later FuXkIn Daze my nIG!:::
DeenSha
:::!Later FuXkIn Daze my nIG!:::
DeenSha
Friday, January 25, 2008
Emancipation of Deen
So what does it take for you to climax?
I mean for you to get to a point where you say that you had enough.....
Just for you to reach a point where its as good or bad as it's going to get. Your so scared to move left or right because you might f up the rotation. But why not test the waters? Why not see how much that situation is important in your life....
Testing the waters isn't always easy. What if's always roll off your tongue....thinking what if I do this and it doesn't work. What if I don't do it and I miss out on something? Well I tested the waters....Yep Momma Deen! lol....So used all my courage from my tat to decide that it was enough. I thought it was going to be much harder than this I admit. I thought I would've been right back to the basics by now, and so did everybody else. All everybody kept saying was WATCH YOU CANT LAST WITHOUT IT!!! But its been a week now and im living. See this situation right in my face everyday....wondering what'll happen this time next month....will I be erased out his memory bank like they do on Men in Black? Or will i be the subject of another convo with another bitxh....actually I cant even control it.....SO why im I tripping? Yep he got my ass! lol....naw im good though..... Chilling listing to the Glory by Kanye. Thinking damn Everything Im not made me everything I am. And like I said I cant help how I feel. Everybody telling me you really dumb for giving a fuxk! But it's coool. Im not going to act like it doesn't effect me....and like im the fuxking Tin lady or something! Don't get me wrong, and still doing my thang....im not tripping that hard! So right about now my mind is preoccupied. Thinking about some nu nu shyt! Thinking about nu possibilities that my mind can reach. Nu things that's really good for me. Don't want to rush into another fuxked up scenario! So im just patiently waiting.....for my next move. Deen is alive and well is what im saying to all the mah fuxkers that thought I was a lost cause....thinking that this bitxh is going to be unfilicitated forever! But Earth to the Ignorant Niggas, im not. Soooo yep DeenSha Hen. is doing just fine!
Later Daze ♥ ♥
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Moving on isn't easy.
Trying to be strong for me and MeMe. Being strong and knowing that I really cant control people. It's really difficult hearing the truth. But I think I'm ready to hear it before it gets to far. Ready to be 100% filicitated. Whether I enjoyed it or not, it wasn't healthy for me right now. I couldn't handle it, at least not emotionally. My feeling were already torn from 3 months so I know If it continued any longer I wouldn't be able to recovered for a while.
But I'm good.
I'm happy I have good friends that support me.
I know it's one friend that is upset at me for my weird emotions.
I'm sorry Rhayne!
Later Daze
♥ Sweetest Girl ♥
Trying to be strong for me and MeMe. Being strong and knowing that I really cant control people. It's really difficult hearing the truth. But I think I'm ready to hear it before it gets to far. Ready to be 100% filicitated. Whether I enjoyed it or not, it wasn't healthy for me right now. I couldn't handle it, at least not emotionally. My feeling were already torn from 3 months so I know If it continued any longer I wouldn't be able to recovered for a while.
But I'm good.
I'm happy I have good friends that support me.
I know it's one friend that is upset at me for my weird emotions.
I'm sorry Rhayne!
Later Daze
♥ Sweetest Girl ♥
Friday, January 18, 2008
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Sleeping with the Enemy.....
Could it be any crazier?
Doesn't give a fuxk about me, doesn't care if I'm living or not.
Sat right next to me, didn't even shyt on me.
So preoccupied with his technology.
Yep, his tech always meant more.
Shyt everything always meant more.
But denial is a bitxh!
Hiding these emotions from everybody including myself.
Damn, played the fool, again.
Alot of people are upset at me, they just cant understand what he's doing that I cant get somewhere else.
Feeling like this has gone way to far.
He the kemo, and cancer in my life.
So yep, I admit it....
You made you happy, but you stop caring.
Stop giving a damn.
Txt, call?
Hell Naw....that was pulling teeth!
Too much pride to show affection.
Bringing me down.
Deserve so much more.
Games is all you know, and you played them very well I could say.
It's really only entertainment to you.
Just another bitxh, another hoe to you.
Another ass hole to believe all of you bull shyt.
Soo Sweet but so venerable to you.
You detected it, and took advantage.
So i slept with the Enemy.
Night after night.
Day after day.
Hurt many of my friends with my stupidity.
They know you don't give a damn.
Your never affected.
Could it get worse?
I think not!
So I want to apologize to all the people that I hurt in the process.
Dont want to lose the little bit of people that actually give a fuxk about somebody other than themselves.
Disrespectful.
Arrogant.
Selfish.
And so much more....
So why I'm I tripping on you?
Why did I let you get the best of me?
But ima give you the ignorant shyt you need.
I guess that what I get for sleeping with the enemy.
Doesn't give a fuxk about me, doesn't care if I'm living or not.
Sat right next to me, didn't even shyt on me.
So preoccupied with his technology.
Yep, his tech always meant more.
Shyt everything always meant more.
But denial is a bitxh!
Hiding these emotions from everybody including myself.
Damn, played the fool, again.
Alot of people are upset at me, they just cant understand what he's doing that I cant get somewhere else.
Feeling like this has gone way to far.
He the kemo, and cancer in my life.
So yep, I admit it....
You made you happy, but you stop caring.
Stop giving a damn.
Txt, call?
Hell Naw....that was pulling teeth!
Too much pride to show affection.
Bringing me down.
Deserve so much more.
Games is all you know, and you played them very well I could say.
It's really only entertainment to you.
Just another bitxh, another hoe to you.
Another ass hole to believe all of you bull shyt.
Soo Sweet but so venerable to you.
You detected it, and took advantage.
So i slept with the Enemy.
Night after night.
Day after day.
Hurt many of my friends with my stupidity.
They know you don't give a damn.
Your never affected.
Could it get worse?
I think not!
So I want to apologize to all the people that I hurt in the process.
Dont want to lose the little bit of people that actually give a fuxk about somebody other than themselves.
Disrespectful.
Arrogant.
Selfish.
And so much more....
So why I'm I tripping on you?
Why did I let you get the best of me?
But ima give you the ignorant shyt you need.
I guess that what I get for sleeping with the enemy.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Missing him.
Riding the train looking out the window.
Looking at all of Gods blessings.
Im thinking....Why am I getting all sad?
God gives me the opportunity to breath everyday, and all I could think about is if he is thinking about me.
Anywho....
Everyday I wake up I get the feeling like God is walking with me.
Like my angel is walking me holding my hand.
Whispering in my hear that everything is going to be ok.
Giving me favor everywhere I go.
So why be sad?
Why not trust God?
And realize that I'm a beautiful being.
Why trip about the little things?
Why not thank God for all the big things that he does?
Done.
Riding the train looking out the window.
Looking at all of Gods blessings.
Im thinking....Why am I getting all sad?
God gives me the opportunity to breath everyday, and all I could think about is if he is thinking about me.
Anywho....
Everyday I wake up I get the feeling like God is walking with me.
Like my angel is walking me holding my hand.
Whispering in my hear that everything is going to be ok.
Giving me favor everywhere I go.
So why be sad?
Why not trust God?
And realize that I'm a beautiful being.
Why trip about the little things?
Why not thank God for all the big things that he does?
Done.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Overstander.
Keeping it real!
Reading my horoscope this morning really helped me to be at peace with my decision.
I'm ok now.
Couldn't sleep last night.
I thought about our situation and I just feel like I let myself go.
Trust me I don't like feeling like this. If I could stop feeling like this I would.
Ever felt you could just run away with all of your feelings and emotions.
Away to a place where you could be free with your thoughts.
It's hard to do that when you see the person all the time.
I realize I need to eliminate all of those feelings out of my system.
PERMANENTLY!!
Don't really want to do that, but its only best.
Ever felt like you were the only person that understood you?
Kinda like every time you opened up your mouth, you were being judged, or you would be the only person who actually felt what you were saying.
Feeling like whenever you say something people might either look at you like your crazy, say that your ignorant, or just say that your just so damn gullible.
So to eliminate all of that you just stop saying how you really feel....
It works out temporarily.
Until the person realizes that you aren't telling them everything.....
Ever want to tell somebody everything?
Just to let it all go! Get it out of your system, and be completely expressive!
Tried it....they thought you were crazy.
UGH!!!
Ever tried writing down how you felt? That worked out temporarily....until they didn't like what you wrote down.
So what should the Sweetest Girl do?
Say fuxk it and let him have his way, and move on. Say who cares and not be ashamed of your feelings for him, or continue business as usual....
Moving on......
Honestly I been living with myself for 19 years now.
I know that I'm a little quirky, freaky, motherly, some might even say ditsy.
But that's me!
And ill be damn if i can help it!
Every felt like nobody could ever love or except you the way you are.
Especially when you know that you have nothing but love for him.
Nothing but kindness in your heart.
Wouldnt hurt a fly.
But seems like everybody wants to hurts you.
The sweetest girl is misunderstood.
Karma is real.
Destiny is real.
And I know God is workig in my favor.
I get me!
And I know its difficult for somebody to understand who you are and appreciate you.
But im going to give myself a little advice.....
OVERSTANDING is a great gift....knowing who you are and sticking to it.
SRH
Faithful, Favored. Sensitive Young Black Woman.
The OVERSTANDER.
Reading my horoscope this morning really helped me to be at peace with my decision.
I'm ok now.
Couldn't sleep last night.
I thought about our situation and I just feel like I let myself go.
Trust me I don't like feeling like this. If I could stop feeling like this I would.
Ever felt you could just run away with all of your feelings and emotions.
Away to a place where you could be free with your thoughts.
It's hard to do that when you see the person all the time.
I realize I need to eliminate all of those feelings out of my system.
PERMANENTLY!!
Don't really want to do that, but its only best.
Ever felt like you were the only person that understood you?
Kinda like every time you opened up your mouth, you were being judged, or you would be the only person who actually felt what you were saying.
Feeling like whenever you say something people might either look at you like your crazy, say that your ignorant, or just say that your just so damn gullible.
So to eliminate all of that you just stop saying how you really feel....
It works out temporarily.
Until the person realizes that you aren't telling them everything.....
Ever want to tell somebody everything?
Just to let it all go! Get it out of your system, and be completely expressive!
Tried it....they thought you were crazy.
UGH!!!
Ever tried writing down how you felt? That worked out temporarily....until they didn't like what you wrote down.
So what should the Sweetest Girl do?
Say fuxk it and let him have his way, and move on. Say who cares and not be ashamed of your feelings for him, or continue business as usual....
Moving on......
Honestly I been living with myself for 19 years now.
I know that I'm a little quirky, freaky, motherly, some might even say ditsy.
But that's me!
And ill be damn if i can help it!
Every felt like nobody could ever love or except you the way you are.
Especially when you know that you have nothing but love for him.
Nothing but kindness in your heart.
Wouldnt hurt a fly.
But seems like everybody wants to hurts you.
The sweetest girl is misunderstood.
Karma is real.
Destiny is real.
And I know God is workig in my favor.
I get me!
And I know its difficult for somebody to understand who you are and appreciate you.
But im going to give myself a little advice.....
OVERSTANDING is a great gift....knowing who you are and sticking to it.
SRH
Faithful, Favored. Sensitive Young Black Woman.
The OVERSTANDER.
:::Sweetest Girl:::
♥
♥
A little Inspiration
I keep moving foward.
Opening New doors and doing new things.
Because I am curious and curiosity keep leading me down new paths.
-Walt Disney
Opening New doors and doing new things.
Because I am curious and curiosity keep leading me down new paths.
-Walt Disney
Um....
Soo I know I havent came thru in a while....but im here now.
I have alot to talk about. The Sweetest Girl been doing alot of thinking and sometimes that hurts me more than it helps. But I cant help how I feel. I just need to understand exsactly whats going on. Its not as simple as it looks. God has a plan for me, and he is working all out for me. So im going to have to practice what I preach and have faith. I cant force it, and I KNOW he isnt going to force it. Soo time will have to tell.
I have alot to talk about. The Sweetest Girl been doing alot of thinking and sometimes that hurts me more than it helps. But I cant help how I feel. I just need to understand exsactly whats going on. Its not as simple as it looks. God has a plan for me, and he is working all out for me. So im going to have to practice what I preach and have faith. I cant force it, and I KNOW he isnt going to force it. Soo time will have to tell.
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Monday, December 31, 2007
Acting Brand Nu....In the Nu year
So I dont like unless it's brand nu shyyyyttt! So today is December 31 and im chillin with the fam. Im thinking.....damn this year is over. 2008 is about to come thru and I can say that im excited. Its just something about new shyt....Brings me backs to that song by Mario called Nike's fresh out the box.
I remember back in the day (lol im only 18....and a 1/2) getting a brand nu pair of Reeboxs. I thought i was hottt shyt! If somebody steped on my Re's it would be on and popping! Anywho......
I want to treat my nu year like I used to treat my Re's. Wear it out and use it for everything it has and take advantage of all my opportonites. I plan to have fun, but not to much to mess up my nu year. My Re's were flyy so I plan to make 08 as flyy. I plan to work hard, and make 08 something to remember. A year that I can look back on and be proud. Kind of how im proud of the way I treated my Re's.
Acting Brand Nu, aint nothing nu fah me.....So you should follow suit.
When the ball drops where im going to be?
Far away from yall mah fuxkahs!
♥ Happy Nu Year ♥
::Sweetest Girl::
::I see her I want her Got to have her like (Nikes fresh out the box) I'm fining Day dreamingGot to have her like (Nikes fresh out the box)I wont scuff her up. I'll lace her up right.Treat her real good like a pair of fresh white hi top or low tops.I got to have the white Nikes fresh out the box::
It feels good when you just got your hair done or when your going out looking flyy as you want to be. It just feels like nothing can go wrong.I remember back in the day (lol im only 18....and a 1/2) getting a brand nu pair of Reeboxs. I thought i was hottt shyt! If somebody steped on my Re's it would be on and popping! Anywho......
I want to treat my nu year like I used to treat my Re's. Wear it out and use it for everything it has and take advantage of all my opportonites. I plan to have fun, but not to much to mess up my nu year. My Re's were flyy so I plan to make 08 as flyy. I plan to work hard, and make 08 something to remember. A year that I can look back on and be proud. Kind of how im proud of the way I treated my Re's.
Acting Brand Nu, aint nothing nu fah me.....So you should follow suit.
When the ball drops where im going to be?
Far away from yall mah fuxkahs!
♥ Happy Nu Year ♥
::Sweetest Girl::
Friday, December 28, 2007
:::Ace coon boon, Home Skillet, Ridah Die Bitxh:::
Big ups to my fav. couple Nicky and Phresh
Yall do need Jesus.....But all the best in EERRRthang yall do!Smooches!
::Sweetest Girl::
♥ ♥
♥ ♥
This my homie....my best bitxh, my sister, my best friend.
I love this gal, been down since 6th grade....been through
hell with this gal....old boyfriends, or magnet drama class with Ms. Cidel,
(West Side story, Hamlet, Sister Act, even making ugly ass playbills lol) life changing events, evening me moving to atl....but we still here...BITXHES!
Down for 7 1/2 years....and counting
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
So this is my "Hood" (partially...tell yallz about St.thomas soon)
CC Zoo aka Carol City bka Mi-Yayo
Ancestries: West Indian (9.8%), United States (4.8%), Subsaharan African (1.0%).
Races in Carol City:
Black (52.1%)
Hispanic (42.0%)
White Non-Hispanic (6.4%)
Other race (5.5%)
Two or more races (3.5%)
Elevation: 8 feet
Land area: 7.62 square miles.
Population density: 7796 people per square mile
For population 25 years and over in Carol City
High school or higher: 61.0%
Bachelor's degree or higher: 9.7%
Graduate or professional degree: 3.7%
Unemployed: 11.1%
Mean travel time to work: 31.7 minutes
For population 15 years and over in Carol City
Never married: 33.2%
Now married: 47.3%
Separated: 3.7%
Widowed: 4.9%
Divorced: 10.9%
Males: 28,570
(48.1%)
Females: 30,873
(51.9%)
Median resident age:
32.0 years
Florida median age:
38.7 years
The happiest song by a emo.....
Barely Breathing
By Duncan Sheik
I know what you’re doing, I see it all to clear I only taste the saline when I kiss away your tears You really had me going, wishing on a star But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn Well it must have been that yesterday was the day that I was born There’s not much to examine, there’s nothing left to hide You really can’t be serious if you have to ask me why
I say good-bye...
‘Cause I am barely breathing And I can’t find the air I don’t know who I’m kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price The price that I would pay
Everyone keeps asking, what’s it all about? I used to be so certain and I can’t figure out What is this attraction? I only feel the pain There’s nothing left to reason and only you to blame Will it ever change?
‘Cause I am barely breathing And I can’t find the air I don’t know who I’m kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price The price that I would pay But I’m thinking it over anyway...
I’ve come to find I may never know Your changing mind Is it friend or foe?
I rise above Or sink below With every time You come and go Please don’t come and go
‘Cause I am barely breathing And I can’t find the air I don’t know who I’m kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price The price that I would pay But I’m thinking it over anyway.
By Duncan Sheik
I know what you’re doing, I see it all to clear I only taste the saline when I kiss away your tears You really had me going, wishing on a star But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn Well it must have been that yesterday was the day that I was born There’s not much to examine, there’s nothing left to hide You really can’t be serious if you have to ask me why
I say good-bye...
‘Cause I am barely breathing And I can’t find the air I don’t know who I’m kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price The price that I would pay
Everyone keeps asking, what’s it all about? I used to be so certain and I can’t figure out What is this attraction? I only feel the pain There’s nothing left to reason and only you to blame Will it ever change?
‘Cause I am barely breathing And I can’t find the air I don’t know who I’m kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price The price that I would pay But I’m thinking it over anyway...
I’ve come to find I may never know Your changing mind Is it friend or foe?
I rise above Or sink below With every time You come and go Please don’t come and go
‘Cause I am barely breathing And I can’t find the air I don’t know who I’m kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price The price that I would pay But I’m thinking it over anyway.
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